Haze

Its that time again. The attack of the haze is back! :)

It gets really REALLY hazy if you travel on KESAS highway in between Klang and Kota Kemuning. Seriously, you can even smell the haze sitting inside the car. However, I noticed that the haze condition has not been extremely bad compared to years ago. I remembered in 1997/1998, the haze hit Malaysia and you can hardly see the sun during day time!

During that year, many schools were shut down momentarily until the situation got better, but I don't think that such case has happened yet this year or during recent years. Maybe the Indonesian government has done something to ease the situation. But it was really fun when classes got canceled back then. :)

Recently, life has gotten hectic! There are so much to do out of a sudden.. I am starting to miss the days when I could just do whatever I like whenever I want. Haha! Work has definitely taken up a lot of my time. I miss the time when I could just sit in front of the computer and watch movie after movie on PPstream. xD

Sometimes work gets so overwhelming that there is no time to stop and breathe! Just like being in the middle of the haze. Hah! The suffocation. Ugh.

But I'm still pretty much happy with my job, just that I would prefer a little more time to rest. LOL! Fussy fussy... :X

Time to hit the sacks. Goodnite all~

徐佳莹 - 失落沙洲

又来到这个港口
没有原因的拘留
我的心乘着斑剥的轻舟
寻找失落的沙洲

随时间的海浪漂流
我用力张开双手
拥抱那么多起起落落
想念的 还是你望着我的眼波

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

又回到这个尽头
我也想再往前走
只是越看见海阔天空
越遗憾 没有你分享我的感动

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
回头才发现你不在
留下我迂回的徘徊
我不是一定要你回来
只是当又把回忆翻开
除了你之外的空白
还有谁能来教我爱

我不是一定要你回来
只是当又一个人看海
疲惫的身影不是我
不是你想看见的我
我不是一定要你回来
只是当独自走入人海
除了你之外的依赖
还有谁能教我勇敢

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Firstly, I would like to dedicate this entry to my 'sai lou' Jason. He's the one who introduced me to 超级星光大道 and 徐佳莹, wouldn't have known this song without him. Also, I apologize to those who do not understand Mandarin. I have chosen this Mandarin song for my entry today because I find it to be a pretty decent piece of music (that is anything remotely close to being current). Well, if you do not understand the lyrics, try listening to the melody and the artiste's singing technique. I especially like her softness in this song.


Let me give you a brief introduction to the artiste for those of you who do not already know her. 徐佳莹 is a Taiwanese singer, made famous after participating (and winning) Season 3 of a Taiwanese Singing Reality TV Show, 超级星光大道. She's a real talented contestant having performed a couple of self-composed songs. Coincidentally, she performed this song during the Finale of the show and went all the way to being crowned Champion.


The title of the song, 失落沙洲，沙洲 = Shoal, Sandbar, Sandbank.
This song (like many other songs) is very much the pain from the loss of someone close. The MV focuses on the sadness of the female 2 years after the death of her partner. However, there is a difference between this song and most of other songs.

Many other songs are either crying about the pain, or asking others to stay strong. However in 失落沙洲, it says that eventhough people have came into terms with the death of that someone, there will still be times when our memory unlocks itself. To me, it is okay to dwell in the sadness once in a while. Afterall it is the loss of someone close.

Even if it is not someone close to you, the death of someone you know bothers most people. Like the recent death of the King of Pop, Micheal Jackson, not many of us knows him personally, but we're still sad over his departure. It gets worse when it is someone closer. I had my share of feeling that loss when my grandma passed away 3 years ago whom I was the closest with ever since I was born. Even after 3 years, I still shed tears when memories of her starts flushing back (like now) out of a sudden. And yes, I'm playing 失落沙洲 on my computer as I'm typing this entry. Hah!

I'm late for work, so I shall just leave it as it is. Enjoy the song! :)

PS: I do not own the rights to materials of 徐佳莹. Credit to whomever owns it. Thanks! :)

Sidelined

According to http://www.thefreedictionary.com/ , sidelined = To remove or keep from active participation.

How many of us have been sidelined in our life? I believe the better question would be how many times have we been sidelined in our life?

Remember how it felt to be folding your arms and standing at the side of the field while your more physical friends got picked for the game?

Or when you were sitting alone at a corner with your own Barbie while other girls were combing the hair of each others' Barbies and went giggling away?

Throughout our life, we're bound to be in situations where we get left out or shoved to the side. Sometimes we might act like it doesn't matter when in reality we're screaming inside our heart asking ourselves WHY ME!!?!

Being sidelined where relationship and emotion's concerned sucks just as much if not even more than the usual stuffs. I've grouped them into 5 levels of Heartbreaking-ness.

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1st Level - Weak Heartbreak

- Usually applies to normal fans of a famous person. Its always you (the fan) who notice the famous person and he/she might (or never will) notice that you even exist!

2nd Level - Mild Heartbreak

- A special category for those fanatic fans out there who pours a lot of energy over their obsession over certain famous person. People in this stage would probably be committee members of certain famour person's fan club or online forum. The truth is........ those famous people might not even remember your name at the end of the day. :)

3rd Level - Serious Heartbreak

- Now, onto a more serious level. :P For you singles out there, yeah you, think of that someone you are interested in. Get a good mental image of that person. Now close your eyes. ............... Then open them! (DUH! How're you gonna read what's next with your eyes closed!! Have you tried confessing to that person? If you have not, afraid to face the rejection that follows right after? I bet being rejected and sidelined by someone you're interested in is a serious heartbreak for most people. Makes you think what's wrong with you. Why sidelined? Well, it's gonna be awkward for you and that person after this, thus he/she will most probably try his/her best to sideline you from his/her life. Rejection's not as half bad unless you get to know that the person is gonna block you out after.

4th Level - Super Heartbreak

- What's worse than being rejected by someone you like? I know! Being rejected (dumped) by someone you like whom you've been together with in a relationship! Not everyone is capable of being friends after a relationship ends. Even if you succeed in maintaining a friendship, it'll not be the same. After spending time together with someone and getting to be so close to the other person, its hard to face the sudden distance between the both of you. Its like telling you that the woman who has always been taking care of you since you were young is not your birth mother. You were so closed, and suddenly, BAM! Empty! Scary how fast things change! What you're familiar with turns into history and the person whom you usually share things with, and lean against turns into a stranger.

5th Level - "I'd Rather Be In Hell" Heartbreak!

- I personally find this situation to be rather suited as a level 5 heartbreak than that of level 4. Have someone you're interested in? But that person's unavailable or attached. But the problem is you still meet that person and his/her partner or even hear news and stuffs about them. Hahaha. Its bad enough to have the person rejecting you, but it stings even more when you get to know that he/she is with another person. How you wish its you in the place of the partner. xD I've thought of a "I rather be in hell" moment for this situation too. Imagine yourself having dinner with your love interest... with his/her partner..... You guys were chatting... TeeHee... No biggie.. Then the food comes. You're feeding yourself while opposite of you, they were feeding each other.. NO BIGGIE~ Dessert time! Ice-cream! Your favourite! They were feeding each other again.. Nothing you haven't already seen. Then they have to put their lips together in front of you. Now, you would rather be in hell! HAH!

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Keep finding yourself asking "When is it gonna happen to me"?

Unfortunately to some, they might ask that question for a very long time.

This post might not bring much meaning, I am in this rare mood to write. And I wrote. xD

Well, good luck to you guys if you're still waiting for that someone to share your life with! :)

PS: I do not own this picture. Credit to whoever that owns it. Thanks! :)